Give me envy, give me malice, give me your attention

Ok, so here is part of what I was gonna post on Friday, and I don't really remember the rest but I still have stuff to write about.

Anyways, in American Problems and the Law, on Friday, we were talking about gun control, and then my class brought up the NIU shootings (which were incredibly tragic). Before I knew it, almost my entire class (including the sub) were all calling the shooter names like weirdo, creep, loser, freak, psycho. Now, what really really peeves me about that is, that is probably what led him to do the shooting anyways! In no way am I defending his actions, but slandering a person who was probably bullied his whole life and possibly made fun of completely proves that human action does have an impact on people. All of us, students and adults, can take heed from this lesson. To students: I know we've heard all those anti-bullying speeches, but have you ever listened to them? What one of us can say that we have gone through one day without speaking negatively about one person, either to their back or their face. I get that I'm being horribly hypocritical right now, but I also was the one not taking part in that conversation in my AP Law class on Friday. The whole concept just seems mean.

Life has just been so frustrating lately, for reasons that are so menial that I can't even remember. I just question human action sometimes, the things we do and say. It's incredibly aggravating. I just want summer back, I am sick to death of this cold and want to be able to go outside with a tee-shirt and jeans on and not be cold. I'm not even saying like, 70 degrees, 50 or 60 degrees would be warm enough.

The more I think about it, the more I really wanna be a lawyer. Yet, at the same time, the more I think about it, the more I get scared that it's just me glorifying a future which I'll never achieve. My end goal to get out of this life is one of two things: Be a successful lead guitarist in a rock band, OR, the more probable one would be to take a seat in the U.S. Senate. I really want to be a Senator, I want to be able to make a change in my country. So many people talk about how our government is corrupt, and it is! But I want to be there and try to get rid of said corruption. I hate the way our government is going just as much as the next democrat, but rather than sit idle (as opposed to sitting actively) and whine, I'm going to try and do something.

That's all I'm going to write now because I'm tired and wanna get a decent nights sleep